I recently visted the place of which i called home at one time and wow did it hurt.
It hurt so much to recall so many memories that when i walked down the old road that i lived upon i started to tear up. It royal sucked being back up in the place of which i called hme for simple reasons.
1 when everyone is off on one single day and try to tear you apart
2 no car to get around...
3 waiting a few hours for a train to go in the direction of which was needed.
4 people

i am seriously on thinking of staying single the entirety of my life single.
People of which i thought that liked me change there mind. and wow was it emotionaly charged when i the train refuses to stop at the station of which was needed. so that means i had to walk a total of 35 miles to get to where i need to go then walk to where i wanted to see. I do have some photos that i am goign to post up here shortly may take some time just downloading off of camera.
Also if anyone has a gun, knife of anykind, and a bottle or wiskey, gin, or vodka give me a hollar.
Would love to borrow for a little while. You shall find out what i will do with these objects combined.

All around me are familiar faces, worn out faces, worn out places. Each of them has no expression, and no idea of what is to come or follow, each face cries underneath hoping that there will be some end to this sorrow, I hide my head, I want to drown my sorrow but of course there is nothing but tomorrow, no tomorrow will ever hold happiness further than the tiny grasp of what we feel. What is true happiness, all I see and know is death, death is absolute life is not. So why do we all struggle to make a life when all it will do is end in defeat? Why do we try to feel good when good is a mask of bad, why do we strive for "good" when maybe the answer is to accept bad and then you will grasp the essence of feeling because it is when we do and feel bad things that our feelings come alive, our essence becomes, and we in turn want more of it, and so it begins. Form the slightest of all bad to the worst of it, our society lives off of it, so what do we have? Our splenddiferous life is now squashed with the realization that every bit of what we work for was some greedy necessity of bad, and that we absolutely need it in our lives and that we need it to survive. Thats when we realize the there is no "Good" in our lives, there is just greediness, a greed to live. To live you must kill and to kill you must in essence be bad. Now with this slight of knowledge I hope all your dreams and wishes come true, and live your life like you had no day to spare. Love all who are in your presence and stop your hate because it will only fuel something else in its never ending circle.

Hey everyone! I have decided to join the army so i have been busy with trying to get all the peperwork done with before moday when i have to go down to get the medical inspect. Wish me luck. i shall have some pics up on monday afternoon

- Name: John
- Birthday: March 8th

- Birthplace: Baton Rouge, LA

- Current Location: (KP, NY) Kingwood, TX

- Eye Color:Bright silver blue

- Hair Color: Blonde

- Height: 5'10.5"

- Right Handed or Left Handed: Right/left

- Your Heritage: mix girl german, french, english, Switz, irish, and italian

- The Shoes You Wore Today: My Doc's

- Your Weakness: Not sure yet

- Your Fears: Lonelyness

- Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Kewl

- Bedtime: midnight or later

- Coke or Pepsi: Coke

- McDonalds or Burger King: neither

- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither

- Chocolate or Vanilla:both

- Cappuccino or Coffee: both as long as they are strong

- Do you Smoke: never

- Do you sing: I used to

- Have you Been in Love: Yes

- Do you want to go to College: studing medical studies at a community college

- Do you want to get Married: Some day hopefully if everything goes good

-Do you believe in yourself: Somtimes

- Do you get Motion Sickness: never

- Are you a Health Freak: nope

- Do you like Thunderstorms: Love them

- Do you play a Instrument: yes i do gutair, piano, and cello

- In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no for i am keeping a promise.

- In the past month have you Smoked: no

- In the past month have you been on Drugs: no i have not taken anything and that is why i stay up so late to fall asleep

- In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes

- In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: I don't buy oreos

- In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes i have and it was very good

- In the past month have you been on Stage: um well i guess you could sa i have been

- Do you work (as in official work): yes i work in a grocery store in the produce dept as an assit. manager

- Its a girl/boy: It's sadly... NOBODY!!!

- Favourite Eye Colour: well it is a freakish color silver, green and purple, basicaly all colors

- Favourite Hair Colour: Blonde, burdeaux, and somekind of dark purple, red, blue, silver.

- Best Clothing Style: I just wear what I feel like depending on the day.

- Number of Drugs I have taken: none at all

- Number of CDs I own: unknown

- Number of Piercing: none

- Number of Tattoos: one tattoo on right shoulder blade i sometimes forget i haev it there but then i feel it and i remember why i got it.

- Number of things in my Past I Regret: I few...

Hey all you deivant people out there. I am sorry i have not been posting alot of pictures up lately have been super busy with school. I got to perform a magic show on friday the 13th. If that is not awsome enough i finnally am able to land this one trick it is called walking on water really really hard to do b/c it was in a local pool when praticing it. I was not able to get a picture of it and no one had a camera around which sucked. Any who i am single and goign to be that way for the sake of school and try to join the military behind my parents back to have an adventure like none other.
I am going to be posting some pictures with in the next four days which is going to be pretty kewl. I am still working on a fanart and gotta get a new program to do this one to fine comb it. I don't like to post much of the fan art i have done already for it does not seem comfterable on posting yet. But keep a watch out i shall have some new pics out there soon. ) . Oh and figure out what you want to be for halloween before it becomes too late. Honor the dead and forgive the past.
another sad news my grandfathers neighbor died Phillip S. Gwen , he was part of the Manhatten project in the Army Air Corps. in WW2. So thank him for helping humanity out. Even if life was lost it was saved others lifes from being lost.
-JMT
Formar Kingsmen and Tiger